242 to 2011

I can feel my heart beating through my chest

I can feel blood pumping through my veins

But I swallow hard because I am not sure

I know I need to do this

I know that it is for good

But I breathe hard because I am not sure

I can see my hands shaking

I can see my life changing

But I shake my head because I am not sure

My journey starts tonight and I might not be sure

But I am sure that He is holding my hand

He will calm my nerves to have peace during this journey

I know He will be waiting to dry my tears

For I know that this journey won't be easy

My whole being will submit wholly to Him

I will pray myself through this journey

Because through prayer I will come out victorious

242 to 2011

Yours Truly

~EW~

Let's Be Honest

Let’s be honest,

No one wants to know what it feels like to be in pain from a love gone bad

No one feels like they want the burden of wanting to know what it feels like to have butterflies in their tummy when they hear a voice or see a person

We run from the experiences of life in the name of preventing a potential walk of shame

How do we grow if we don’t learn from life’s wealth?

How do I guarantee myself to be one you can love if I know not how to love?

You will never be able to tell the tales of when you fell in love and bite your lower lip

You will never be able to tell a bitter story and shed a tear in the process

I cannot have my cake and eat it all

I cannot want half of what someone’s got to offer and not be ready to deal with the full package

Being selfish is part of growing up where we deny ourselves things to reach our destiny

Being selfish is not warranted when in a relationship with another person

My values may or may not sustain us nor will yours

My vice and yours too will however bring us down and take us back to one

Love comes from everyone and comes in all shapes and sizes

Love that is true comes from you; yourself

Accept that you can love and that you can be loved

Accept that you can make a step into the unknown and come out alive

Do not linger in darkness hoping to find me

Do not wonder in the corridors hoping to come in

Doors are wide and windows there too to let out bad air

Doors are there for us to walk into peoples’ lives and walk out when we feel we cannot do this any more

I cannot continue living wondering what was waiting if I jumped

I cannot imagine living knowing I was too afraid to approach you when I could

Let’s be honest this life would be a lie if I never told you how much I felt for you

It would be fictitious to imagine I will live this life with you in it and not cringe at the thought of never telling you

I want to be honest with myself in this life but what will it take…

I cannot expect you to be honest with me if I cannot be honest with you

Let’s be honest, I don’t want to lie to you

…I want to be honest

~Yours Truly