With Your Life

It felt so warm as it slid down my cheeks

The pain that run through every part of my body was alive

I do remember what got me here

Certainly thinking about the warmth of the moments

I felt vulnerable in your hands; your words reassured my pouncing heart

The world did not exist; it was just you and I

Your firm hands that covered my form was comforting yet exciting

If there was one time I was unable to swallow it was then

As my mind tried to construct the perfect words to describe the moment

I was frozen in that time capsule…

Everything stopped and motion ceased...all that was moving, and fast, was my heart

The pace of a jaguar on adrenaline plus was my heart literally

Your eyes delve deep into mine and the spin like the whirlwind in the desert

A journey that translates itself to more than what I’d ever known or felt

And then you said it…

“This isn’t working,”

The goose bumps rose all over my body and a chill so cold down my spine

“But what…?” I asked,

“I never mentioned to you about Celia…my fiancée,” he said while turning his face away

And then I swallowed hard…”Why didn’t you ever mention this to me?”

And the best he could do was it all happened so fast and that he did not want to lose me…six months later….come on!

And that is when I felt a tingle in my eye and then the tear just slid down my cheek and the pain was so alive mostly in my heart…I felt like I could remove it and make this feeling go away…but I couldn’t it was with me for a long time.

Whatever brought us to this point was a lie and all lies

I cannot remember when my heart felt what I felt

The ease of letting you into my life was my biggest lesson

It is what it is…to turn back the hand of time is impossible

I want to take back all that I feel for you…but what I felt for you was real

I am a real person with real feelings

What God gave me to give can sometimes be abused

I am a wonderful person, hard to let go of and easy to fall for…

My heart though is guarded by grids of vigilance from the likes of you

I may not see what you are made of right away…but it will come to light soon

Guard your hearts people…guard it with your life.

~EW