The Question is?

I was asked this question and I felt like someone was finally seeing through me
Like someone had seen through the many layers that I have on my entire body
All but to suggest happiness
What a loaded question that becomes and in the end what could I say…
“Elsie, are you a happy person?”
Yes I am happy….but the 6milion things that replay in my head to confirm the contrary
I have the deepest fears that any human can experience and acknowledge
They have roots so deep; the core of the earth could be my next place the roots will find themselves
Maybe, I am not happy...but who is to say?
Do you think I’m happy because of the people that surround me that I laugh with and make me smile?
Is it the house that I live in; the car that I drive; the places I dine and wine? The destinations and trips that I venture to on vacation; the many things that the world may now be defining as happiness…?
Isn’t this pleasure; what is born of the external world and not within me? I may find pleasure in travelling but that may not be what makes me happy.
What is happiness?
Is it not the pure love and appreciation for the self and of those around you?
Isn’t it the situations in my life that I have judged as good and if not then I am not happy.
Mahatma Gandhi said it, “Happiness is when what you think, what you say, and what you do are in harmony.”
Harmony sounds so foreign. If I throw this question back at you, will you tell me whether you have happiness or whether you are still on your quest? Granted we may have happiness because we chose to have it because at the end of the day it is a state of mind. But is everything you do synchronized?
When I think I am in love; and say I love you; do I actually love you?
After any ordinary or normal day does everything you’ve thought, said and done harmonized?
When you have happiness then you have wonderful attitudes that feed that whole that does not deny you that pleasurable experiment called life
Yes…life is only pleasurable if we have happiness that truly exists and as the core of the being.
“Happiness is the meaning and purpose of life, the whole aim and end of human existence,” Aristotle
How is it for you?
Do you cloud your mind with everything that is not kind to nurture happiness?
I write this not for you but for me and now ask myself…
“…am I happy?”
And still a very loaded question
~EW