Just When

Just when I thought I had taken enough,
Just when I thought,
"I've had enough,"
He came in,
and I gave in.
Oh no!!!
I shouldn’t have.
But...
No buts!!!
Soon I was wallowing in my errors
My outlook changed to terror
My little heart felt like a knife cutting through,
My mind could only race through
Then I had nothing to carry me through
My curse was my only weakness
All at the cost of my happiness
like a bouncing ball,
back and forth,
against a wall.
~EW